PrettyThin Again

Disclaimer: PT2 is a site for all people - those in recovery, those who are in the midst, and everyone in between. We do not encourage anyone to become more ill. 

November 2, 2014

Direct traffic: 77%
Links: 18%
Searches: 5%
Visitors per day: 150 average
Primary traffic source: USA
Secondary traffic source: Australia 

It's been awhile since the front page was updated, eh? I want to continue discussions about the site in and of itself and it's important for visitors to get the full scope of our community. 

Here are some bits and pieces of our latest conversations about PT2. 

"Hey guys, it's been a while-- so long, in fact, that my visit to the site tonight is the first time i've seen this front page, and I was glad to read the content there.  I hadn't pinpointed it as such, but part of the reason I haven't been visiting the site has been that I too have seen the philosophical shift to pro-recovery here. For the last year I have been, not only not recovering, but also not at all remorseful about my current ED "success", that I have felt that anything I have to ruminate about is not relevant or welcome.  Mind you, no one has ever directly made me feel this way-- I love you all-- but when I have come and read the posts, I just have felt that anything I have to say would have a negative effect.

So, it's nice to read what was written on the front page, and I really have appreciated this community in the past.  Don't worry, I'm not here to blow shit up or post panty-selfies or anything like that.  I'm just glad that this place is still here."

"I think that we naturally, being a resurrection of an old site and having an older format, artract people that have been in their EDs longer. And for most, I think it's just so old and ingrained we don't want to talk about it much. It's also hard, nowadays, to have had an ED for a long time without at least trying recovery. And with that come the acknowledgement that what you are doing, with the ED is not good for you. Most of us are not in the honeymoon stage in our EDs and if we are, than we've been around long enough to know that the good feelings are a lie. So of course we are pro recovery. EDs are no fun and if you can get out I'm going to support you. Thing is though we are not anti ED. We are not pro ED. We are pro person with ED. We know people slip up we know they aren't always ready, so we support the person. The ED is just part of what's going on with the person."

"I can't say that PT2 has changed my life, and who knows if it has made my ED better or worse...but it is the one place in my current world where I can be honest about this part of my life and address it in some way. Beyond that, it's like any internet community in that I have "met" people here I admire, enjoy exchanging thoughts and messages with, and learn from."

"This is somewhere I come when I'm feeling alone. EDs are isolating and alienating, so it's a relief to talk to other people going though it too. This is one of the few ed sites that has a nice balance between having enough freedom to be honest and blunt about where you're at and also not completely off the rails with ana worship and triggering content."

"PT2 has become a place where I can safely explore the space in my experience that feels scary at times. It's an incredible community of support and encouragement, and I find that I feel less alone knowing that other folks have similar thoughts and challenges. Sometimes in the midst of a struggle, this has been the one place where I have felt connected, and I have been overwhelmed by the genuine care I've received during moments when I've truly needed it. I am inspired by the individuals I have met here. It's like a gigantic cloud of hugs, this community."

"PT2 is one of the most real and honest forums I've ever been a part of. No one is trying to prove anything, we are all just hanging out and sharing our experiences. I feel like I have a family here that will always accept me no matter where I am with my ED. It's the only place that I feel like I can come and go, and still feel welcome. There are so many smart, funny, mature, and interesting people here. I can't imagine how I would have gotten through these years without this place or all you people."

"That's what a lot of people keep saying, and that's why I really wish there were an area in PTA where there were no rules. (Obviously the panty shot thing should still be in effect) If something really harmful were posted, people would s till be able to flag it but there wouldnt be this constant feeling of having to put trigger warnings on everything, and not being allowed to say what you really think. And yes I KNOW there are no rules against saying what you think, but you can't deny that thats how things have turned out, and I think its kind kf smlthering this place. Just lets have a forum where no trigger warnings are necessary because in big writing on the front is a disclaimer or something that its not going to be censored, and its likely going to be triggering and if you can't handle that, don't go there." 

I chose these quotes because I think they are prominent examples of who we are as a community. We are a group of people here with one thing in common - an eating disorder. We have members in recovery, we have members in the midst of their disorder, and everyone in between - you are welcome here. Like one member said above:

"Thing is though we are not anti-ED. We are not pro ED.....we are pro person with ED...the ED is just part of what's going on with the person."

We all change, our EDs change, our lives change, who we are as people change. That one thing you can count on, though, is the rock that we have created with PT2. No matter how much we change, one thing remains - we aren't alone. 

June 23, 2014

Stats update:
Direct URLs are still the primary mode of sharing the site, however, search for this site specifically is up to 8%, and now social media has garnered us a small percentage of traffic (2%). Traffic is down, however, and we average 150 visitors per day and about 5,000 visitors per month. 

Now, on to the latest site discussions. 

I'm fully aware that we have presented ourselves as a site that doesn't want to be seen as "pro-ana." Most of us want nothing to do with that label but still respect those who are trying to reclaim the term as something more supportive rather than harmful.

As a consequence, though, our community has gained the reputation of being "pro-recovery" and strict. The only change we made between PT2 and OPT is no panty shots and no unhealthy diet buddies. Everyone is still free to talk about their eating disordered issues in all their triumphs and tribulations - good and bad. We've been talking about this a bit in the forums, and we all seem to have come to a similar ideal - the freedom to discuss our problems uncensored, but not bring back the "drama" OPT once had. 

So, let me say it now; PT2, PTA, whatever you'd like to call it, is pro YOU. If you are in recovery, we will support that. If you're not, we'll be here for you, too, in whatever facet you might need (and we're awesome to use for random conversations that get you out of your head for awhile).

Do not worry about censoring yourself  -  just use your judgement. 

Start right here. We're all reading. 

January 17, 2014

We'll begin with some statistical updates. From December to January, we averaged between 200-250 visitors per day, and in December alone we had about 6,000 visitors. 

Top 3 incoming traffic sources of the past 12 months: 
1) Direct URL (79%)
2) Links (15%)
3) Search (5) 

We are most frequented by users from: 

1) United States (specifically the east coast)
2) Europe
3) Canada

In light of my failed attempt to get the community creating our next homepage, it did give me a spark. It is part of our past to continue the front-page ramblings of a crazy person and it is my sworn duty, as a crazy person, to continue it! So, now that the memes are aside (doge much sad) I did see one thing on our discussion page: many members were concerned as to how our mini-voting contest would affect the self-esteem of our members and how it might portray us to visitors. 

Continuing, more and more members are joining, and many say they are former members of PT - here are some quotes I've pulled from the first few posts in the introductory forum: 

"....I missed having a place to discuss triggers and coping with everyday life, so... I'm back.

I don't know if I'll stay, but I'm glad that the community didn't fall apart when the site did. I was quiet, but PT always felt like a comforting, non-judgmental friend."

"....most of the time I feel so alone because I've never had the opportunity to meet other people in similar situations, my family are pretty much in denial and some are too wrapped up in their lives so I've turned here hoping to find someone to talk to about life..."

" and it's just nice to come back here and know I'm not the only one who has this stuff in their head.. all the time...."

Here are some things I've seen in the forum:

"Reading through the post I just kept thinking.. I would not be able to do this. So I think you should be proud of yourself firstly. I've never been in IP but what I do know is this.. it doesnt matter what weight you are, if you have a sick mind, you're sick, that is it, end of. And fuck whoever else judges you. If that is the only thing they have to do with their time then I pity them. You shouldn't be looking at this as a way for people to compare and compete with you, you need to see this as a chance to do what's best for you. Blank out everyone else."

"And I gave him the answer he didn't want to hear, that you can't make some with an ED eat. And I thought about my story, and I thought about all of you. About the threads I've read and the members I've seen come and go over the years. How we all are so unique and different, yet in other ways so alike. How we can talk to each other about what our loved ones do that help us and hurt us."

" And remember, the words of support you see here, and from your husband...people really do care for you. I know that can seem like just one more "responsibility", but still; I hope you can see them and receive them simply for what they are.  Caring wishes from people who've come to know you, and know your true heart , from all the ways you've been here for others in the past."

And now, for my own confessions. As of lately, I've been staring at the discussions page, wishing I had something more to say. My participation has been sporadic because my depression has gotten the best of me these past few months....and it's nauseating for me to even type that out. My income is limited so I had been in limbo as to what to do - and one member messaged me, offering a sum to cover several rounds of therapy for me. A person I had never met in real life extended a hand and trust, taking a chance to help me. 

We are terrified of talking in the "real world", of opening up, and some of us who have taken that bold chance were shut down. In my brief quotes above, you see what PT is known for and why people come here, time and time again. It is both triggering and saving, scary and warm - we see ourselves in the members around us. It inspires us to give because we KNOW what the other may need; we've been there before. We are the strangers who keep your secrets, but sometimes we are the strangers who can offer a saving grace, if only for that moment. 

If you're searching for a place to be who you are (angry, crazy, happy, manic, whatever), you've found the right place. Please, come in.